Never been happier to fail a test!

First Published 15 July 2021

Well the week started well… Time with family as we wished my brother a happy big birthday.  A great catch up in person with a couple of friends which resulted in a touch of sunburn as the weather was so good.  A headshot session for a thriving exciting new business – for their whole leadership team at their company retreat.  And then driving home from the shoot to discover I have been in contact with someone who tested positive for COVID!

I had a conversation today with someone about the resulting waiting game from my own PCR test to figure out the implications.  When I was asked how I felt about it, I responded to say that actually it was all ok and it hadn’t affected me… my questioner then gave me ‘the look’ I occasionally have with clients who aren’t quite admitting the whole truth to themselves… I then started to unpack my thoughts.  I discovered that while I wasn’t concerned for myself, I was playing the what if game – what if I have it and passed it on to my friends or clients!  What if they then get it – What if they get it bad…? what will they think of me?  Yet I still wasn’t too concerned about my own well being or what it would mean for me personally!

Interestingly as I pondered this I noticed that all these worries/concerns weren’t at a completely conscious level!  With the therapies I practice I know just how much is going on at that unconscious and sub conscious level and yet today I was caught with an ‘ah ha’ moment again!  Just goes to show how important it is to do a bit of digging to work out what is going on for us and to find someone to help us dig is invaluable.

In case the title to my ponderings wasn’t clear, my test came back negative so the ‘what if’s’ have gone away thankfully.  I am still stuck at home for another few days due to the orders of the TestProtect team so I’m taking that as a perfect excuse to order takeaway cos I can’t go to the supermarket… well you have to find the silver linings somewhere 😉

Have you been contacted by the TestProtect team (or whatever name your local contact tracing team are called)?  How did you feel or process the news?

Oh – and since I mentioned the dreaded C word – thank you again to those of you that took part in the research study last year.  The results are in and the study has been published – it’s currently in peer review and is looking promising.